all weebly and wobbly

only in dreams...?!!?!??!

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 14:50:41 GMT

Two things I forgot to add:

1. Ryan Old-->
WHY DO I KEEP ON HAVING DREAMS ABOUT HIM?!?!?! Last night, I had a dream that everyone was at this HUGE party. (I watched "Dazed and COnfused" last night, that might have something to do with it.) And I dreamt that I was hanging out with Old. Just chillin' doing nothing. And he takes out a guitar, and starts playing "Always" By Blink. WHAT THE CRAP IS THAT?! He does truley have one MASSIVE gob. Surley I can't be the only one who has noticed that. Mark Big Gob. HAHAHAHAHA.

2.Kurt's Musak-->
I've been getting into metal latley. Nate's sent me some stuff, and Kurt's sent me some stuff. And I dunno. I really like it. I plomise you all that I will not turn into some gross metalhead girl. I like it, but I will still mirror Audrey. Forever and Always.

down down down...pick me up i'm falling.....

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 14:37:54 GMT

1. Morgs-->
Well...we're over for now. He's okay with it. And we're still friends. Which is great and its exactly what I want.

2. Dookie's-->
Yesterday Dookie, Caitlyn and I hung out. And Brett and this guy James came. I never met these guys but I knew that they were really cool. We stopped by Morgs' house just to say "hi" and he got SO ANGRY. (James and him are mortal enemies) So, thats what kind of triggered it. I have no regrets. James is a cool guy. I'm not going to hate him just becuase Morgan does.

3. Party Withdrawl-->
I have a party craving. Someone better have a party soon. With cool people. And beer.

this thinger

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 21:18:57 GMT

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN THE PAST 10 YEARS::
1. became aware of who i am
2. moved to Milton
3. met all of my amazing friends
4. became a drama freak
5. learnt to open up

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN THE PAST 5 YEARS::
1. same
2. as
3. above
4. merr
5. merr

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO YOU IN THE PAST YEAR::
1. met nate k.
2. met nate d.
3. learnt that my sister's actually really mean
4. drank a helluva lot
5. learnt more about my abilities

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO YOU IN THE PAST MONTH::

1. sears
2. got along with my parents better
3. advanced from sears
4. hated a lot of people
5. lurved a lot of people

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO YOU IN THE PAST WEEK::

1. got sick
2. got general horn
3. got rid of sickness
4. didn't get rid of horn
5. drifted further away from morgs

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO YOU YESTERDAY::

1. went to hockey game
2. saw nate k.
3. relatives came over
4. decided its time
5. talked to nate d. lurve him

::LIST 5 SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY::

1. woke from effed dream
2. went to church
3. was a bored techy.
4. daydreamed a lot
5. updated a lot
____________________

::THE FIRST::
Word you said: "yitti"
School you went to: Tincap
Friend you made: Probably Jesse. Or Alana.
Person you loved: I dunno...
Person you fell in love with: Isnt that the same thing?
Person you kissed: David my boyfriend in Kindergarten. I thought it was disgusting.
Person you dated: Jake. *shakes head in dismay*
Person you uh... did stuff with: define "did stuff with"
Illegal drug you took: NONE *beam*

::THE LAST::
Word you said: "FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK"
School you went to: THIS ONE! EC DRURY HIGH SCHOOL!
Friend you made: Ryan
Person you loved: Morgs(?)
Person you fell in love with: Morgs(?)
Person you kissed: Nate K.
Person you dated: Morgs.
Person you uh... did stuff with: Morgs I guess.
Illegal drug you took: NONE *beam*

::THIS OR THAT?::
This/That: either/or
White/Black: black
Shaken/Stirred: shaken. unless carbonated beverage.
Boxers/Briefs: boxers are hot =P especially when visable.
Smooth/Chunky: uh.......*mumbles off*
Looks/Intelligence: niceness =)
MTV/VH1: VH1
Nickelodeon/Cartoon Network: uhhh....TELETOON MAN!
Boohbah/Teletubbies: CLEARY BOOBAH!!! SOMEONE BUY ME THE BLUE/RED BOOBAH!
McDonalds/Burger King: uuhhhh KAYLA!
Britney/Christina: Tegan and Sarah.
Jessica/Mandy: Mandy. I like her acting better than her singing though.
Avril/Ashlee: NEITHER!!!!!
Justin/Nick: Tom Delonge.
N*SYNC/BSB: I'm gonna have to go with...THEY ALL DIE AND I GET THEIR MONEY!
Pop/Rock: Emo
Rap/Punk: Screamo
Good Charlotte/Simple Plan: Atreyu (these choices really suck)
Grease/Rocky Horror Picture Show: RHPC!!!!!!!
Marilyn Monroe/Gwen Stefani: Hrmm....toughy....Marilyn's a classic. But I LURVE Gwen's style. They're both incredably sexy...I'm gonna have to go with Gwen. Just becuase she actually has talent and isn't a whore. =)
Pat Benetar/Deborah Harry: DONT KNOW!!!!!
Big Bird/Cookie Monster: Cookie Monster!!!!!! "C is for Cookie, thats good enough for me!" I smell a baking extravaganza!
Red/Blue: Red.
Hilary/Lindsay: I wish death on both of those cheating whores who have no talent. And fake boobs. And ugly hair. RRRRRRRR.
Queer Eye/Straight Plan: Queer Eye. I think my dad belongs to that show.
Mad TV/SNL: Mad TV
Beavis and Butthead/South Park: Beavis and Butthead. They wore AC/DC crap.
Daria/My So-called Life: Daria. Definately.
Degrassi/Radio Free Roscoe: Hrmm....another toughy...I'm gonna say Radio Free Roscoe. Just because it has the hot Nathans. And has cooler music.
Smurfs/Snorks: Smurfs. That song should have a The Used remake. That'd be hot.
Care Bears/Strawberry Shortcake: Care Bears. *sticks out stummy*
Johann/Peewit (please put neither): Okay, neither. Although I don't know who they are.
Dr. Frank-n-Furter/Vanity Smurf: DR. FRANK-N-FURTER!!
The Sex Pistols/The Ramones: Sex Pistols
The Clash/Blondie: DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE!! I CANNOT!

they will see us waving from such great heights...(come down now)

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 20:07:00 GMT

1. Morgs-->
I need to do it. I do. If I don't, I'll never be happy.

2. Nate D.-->
Aw, man. I feel so bad. He never had a girlfriend. I'm sorry for everything I've written about you, darling. I didn't mean it, I swear.

3. Ryan C.-->
Went to his game yesterday with Paige. Had fun. Was motherly and embarrasing and yelling a bunch. Nathan and Neil came just to see me. So I was a cuddly and kissy with Nate. And Ryan saw us. *stomach drops* Afterwards, when we saw him. I said, "NATE CAME!" and he said, "oh, thats who it was..." and apparantly there was FIRE in his eyes. I feel so bad. NO! NOT NATE! I DON'T LIKE NATE! I LIKE YOU! YOU! We've been talking a lot and such. I need to tell him. He deserves to know. At least he won't be like Brandon. *rolls eyes*

4. New Lurve/Loathe List: ( I change my mind a lot, okay?!)

LURVE:
1.TBS and other HEAL-ALL MUSAK. I've lurve you always
2.Dookie. I hope Grham's a keeper!!!
3.Poodle. You're gorgeous even when you look like crap and don't bathe.
4.Nate King. Don't leave. Please don't leave again.
5.Nate D. I'm sorry. We gotta build that house. And I'll fall asleep everynight next to you
6.Nate Smith. Props son. You're one hella strong man. Lurve and Learn. I'll always lurve you. Even when Laura may not.
7.Tito. You always make me smile and larf when I'm down. Thanks.
8.Josh. Thanks for being there for me. Sorry I couldn't make it Friday.
9.Ryan. You're the nicest boy I know. I gotta tell you before I explode.
10.Food. It makes everything better.
11.Kurt. You're cute. *cute smile*

LOATHE:
1.JACKASS JACKASS JACKASS!! *rolls eyes*
2.Nickie! *rolls eyes and glares BACK*
3.Morgan...
4.My Lips. They hurt real bad.
5.Jokes that go on too long. But the Zamboni will go on forever.
6.Getting rejected by the Zamboni Man.
7.And the pop machine.
8.And Nate.
9.Mrs.Poland *counts proporly and isn't math teacher*
10.Having to get a job. *grumbles off*
11.MY FUCKED UP DREAM! *shivers*

One Eighty By Summer

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 19:29:30 GMT

Go on just say it,
You need me like a bad habit,
One that leaves you defenceless, dependant, and alone.
Go on just say it (Are you afraid to),
You need me like a bad habit (Say what you want to, tell me you want to),
One that leaves you defenceless, dependant, and alone.(Are you afraid to say what you want to, tell me you want to).

Well I hold my tongue use it to assess,
The damage from way back when it mattered,
But nothing seems important anymore,
We’re just protecting ourselves from ourselves,
And I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back…),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back…

Are you ashamed to say what you want to tell me you want to.
Are you ashamed to say what you want to tell me you want to.
(Go on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Go on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to.
(Go on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Go on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to.

I’m making the difference,
It just seems pointless,
Well I’ll be obvious,
That’s got out of focus,
Why can’t you just be happy,
Why can’t you just be happy.
And I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back…),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back...

(Just come back…)
Go on just say it,
Go on just say it,
Well I’ll just say it,
I’ll just say it,
I need you defenseless, dependent and alone.
(Just come back… )
She says live up to your first impression,
Well my best side was your worst invention,
Why can't you live without the attention,
Why can't you live without the attention.
(Just come back…)
She says live up to your first impression,
Well my best side was your worst invention,
Why can't you live without the attention
Why can't you live without the attention

She says live up to your first impression (Go on, just say it),
Well my best side was your worst invention (Go on, just say it),
Why can't you live without the attention (I need you defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live without the attention (alone).
She says live up to your first impression (I just say it),
Well my best side was your worst invention (I just say it),
Why can't you live without the attention (I need you defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live without the attention (Alone),
Why can’t you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can't you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live…without…the...love…without (Defenseless, dependent, defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live…without…the...love…without (Defenseless, dependent, defenseless, dependent).

Always?

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 02:24:12 GMT

1. Morgs-->
I have no idea what I'm gonna do. Being with Morgs has been so hard latley. I've had to put forth EFFORT to be with him. I'm finding it easier and easier to not listen to him. I know its mean. Its really mean. But I can't help it. Maybe it's our time. 5 months is a long time. And I always knew it was gonna name. ["But you, couldn't last a lifetime..."] Hopefully I'll know sooner than later. I was listening to the Blink self-titled CD today, and it made me want to puncture my eardrums. It doesn't make me happy thinking of Morgs. All I can do is wish he would leave. And he gets jealous all the time. Like, today. Period 4, we were in the compy lab with the guys from shop. And Ryan wanted Shelby and I to go and sit next to him. Great. But afterwards, he said, "I wanted to come up to you and talk to you a bunch of times, but everytime you were talking to Ryan." He complains constantly. CHEER UP! I DONT WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO ISNT HAPPY WITH THEMSELVES. Do you think thats gonna make me happy? Get over yourself. Life isn't that tough. If I "make you happy" can you please show it once and a while? I'm sick of you trying to convince me everything's okay. When I know its not. Right now I need someone. And that someone is not you. I'm sorry.

GENERAL HORN AHHHHHH

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 21:26:15 GMT

*stabs self*
I'm A MASSIVE IDIOT!!!!!!!!
PIEMAN!!!!!!!!!
HORN!!!!!!!!!
FUUUUUUCK.

i swear to god i'm gonna kill him (its pathetic)

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 22:45:17 GMT

NEW LOVE/HATE LIST:

Lurrrve:
1. TBS and how it heals all
2. Secret Agent Dookie and how shes so strong and willing to give him a taste of the ink from his own pen.
3. Zookie becuase she's so dang hilarious! (Especially her impressions)
4. Hallway runs *sings the song*
5. Operation: Meltdown
6. Boys (not)
7. Drama (not)
8. PieMan because hes so dang cute and sweet. (He might have a part in Operation Meltdown, if he agrees)

Loathe:
1. Chase and Kevin. Stop being so fucking insensitive and acting like you don't care even when i fucking know that you do. I'm never going to trust you again. Trust goes fucking both ways. He loves her and she fucking loves him. Thats more than what I could say about you and her, Chase. Stop being jealous. *shakes fist*
2. Nickie. STOP GLARING AT ME!!!!!!! *shakes both fists*
3. Nate K. and his retarded-ness and even more so retarded excuses *shakes both fists and a foot*
4. Nate D. came online last night and was all, "hey love." "hows it going babe?" "aww I wish I could be there to make you feel better hunnie" AHHHHHHHH! *shakes....EVERYTHING*
5. JACKASS BECUASE THATS WHAT HE IS: A JACKASS.

operation: meltdown

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 22:23:53 GMT

1. Operation: Meltdown-->
Shelby liked Brandon Moore. And he told her he liked her too. They were going on a date tomorrow. But I was talking to Ryan C yesterday and I casually asked him (because I kind of suspected it)"do you like amber?" he said, "what?! no. she's going out with brandon." *stomach falls to ground* I told Shelby about it, becuase I thought it would be better if she knew. She was really angry and upset. So we decided to make his life misrable. He played both of us, so its time for him to be played.

2. Pie Man-->
Likes me and is secretly wishing morgan and I break up. *stomach falls through floor to basment*

such great heights...

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 21:34:08 GMT

1. Morgan-->
Wow, I very much love this boy. Last night, he fell asleep in my arms and just held me. It was amazing. I don't get how I can love just one person so much, but I do. I'm sorry about everything before. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for ever saying anything. I guess I didn't mean it.

*we'll be waving from such great heights...*

I love you. Never forget that.

Love, Jamie xox

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 20:50:07 GMT

1. Nate King-->
"Suplies, suplies" hes BACK into my sister's life...and soon to be out of it! He's probably moving to Halifax. That's right! Your eyes are not decieveing you! This idiot is breaking my sister's heart and leaving her yet AGAIN! AND he's a massive drug dealer. He needs to sort out his priorities. I love how mum and dad still think hes in S.C. Eep.

2. Morgan-->
He's been acting....well bascially like he hates me lateley. A few days ago he got mad at me for "not listening". Even though I was listening to every single word intently.His Grandmother passed away Sunday. And I sympathize. But everytime I'm nice to him, he somehow finds a way to bite my head off. He never tells me he loves me anymore...

3. Josh-->
Saw him Tuesday (did not, of course, tell Morgan). We just went for a walk and coffee. But he tried to kiss me. Then later on MSN he was saying some really innapropriate things like, "I love you" and "I'm counting the days until I can have you". Really weird. But actually, at this point in time, he's more of a comfort to me than Morgan's being right now.

4. Sears-->
We ADVANCED!!!! With four awards I think. Kate, Julieanne and Steve (of course) got one a peice. I'm actually quite pleased. I didn't want all our hard work, sweat, and tears (literally) to go to waste. Melissa was pissed because she didn't get an award. Well, she didn't exactly put her heart and soul into like Julie or Steve did.

STRESSED

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 13:24:48 GMT

Drama has eaten my soul. SLASH Schedule. So thats why I haven't been able to write in so long! *tear*.

1.] DRAMA-->
We only JUST did a perfect run, [but were 9 minutes overtimed] BUT at least we have all our blocking done! *huge grin* Man, sometimes I hurt so much at practises, and am so stressed and tired I cry!! AK! Oh well, comes with it I supose.

2.] DAMN GENERAL HORN!-->
Wow, I think I like PieMan a tad. I'm not quite sure. He's really nice. He kina acts like he likes me too =S. HAHA I could just say I'm using him for entertainmentosity purposes. He does have one kick ass celly.

3.] MRS. POLAND-->
I hate our math teacher. The back right corner [Alysha, Morgan, Natasha and myself] yell at her a lot. Becuase she can't spell "bacteria", or teach. Maybe in Poland. But not here. I want her OUT.

4.] LIPZZZZZZ-->
Josh is teaching me how to hack. =) Its so much fun. And I'm teaching Paige. My "spy name" [hahahahahahahahaha] is Lips. [Which, for those who did not already notice, was the name that PieMan gave me. Purley conincedential, I swear]

5.] DIE DIE DIE-->
I wish death upon Vanessa Van Haring!!!!! She broke up with Damien, AGAIN!AND FOR WHAT PURPOSE?! WHO THE HELL KNOWS?! Man, Damien is such a sweet guy, he deserves better than that.

6.] MDIZZ-->
I lobe him. He gave me a dark blue rose for V-Day because he knew I've always wanted a black one. =)Paige had a party and you know where THAT led to...

7.] JARHEAD AND PAIGE!!!!!!-->
Are going out. AWWWWWWW [not] *vomits all over self*

That's all for now! Hopefully I will be able to write soon!!!!! THE DAY is on FRIDAY!!!!!

this is you trying hard to make sure that you're seen with a girl on your arm...

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 19:11:45 GMT

...and your heart on your sleeve...remind me not to ever think of you again.

LAD UPDATE! LAD UPDATE!

1. Nathan Degne-
Is a fucker.

2. Morgan-
He's back to his old self. All tired and lovey and pathetic. Ga, I love him but he can truley be SUCH a tosser sometimes.

3. Josh Bridge-
Last night, Josh was a little bit stoned but we had this serious convo too. And he was going on for England about how he loves me and he doesn't want to see me get hurt because of Nickie and everything. He's coming over Tuesday [*squee*] and I was telling him how I HATE it that he always SHOVES Nickie under my face. And then he raved on some more. Now, this morning, I came online, and I notice that NICKIE has added me. So I start a convo with Josh, and I say, "Why has Nickie added me?" and he gets all worried, saying, "BLOCK HER!" now, I know theres a reason that he wants me to block her...and its PROBABLY becuase he's told her something that isn't true and he doesn't want me to figure out. Now, what I didn't know until about five minutes ago, is that last night, Josh and Nickie got into a fight [Nickie told me this] and they're sort of broken up. Now, I want to know, was this anything to do with me? AND what is it that Josh doesn't want me to know? ITS KILLING ME. [And for some reason, Nickie apologized to me how she thought she "couldn't trust me". Its not ME she shouldn't trust...its her "BOYFRIEND"]

and I fell asleep to the sounds of you crying

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 00:57:27 GMT

I haven't written in a while so this is going to be a super long entry.

WHY MUST EVERYONE LOVE ME?!

1. Nathan Degne-
He finally came online. We talked a lot. Said we missed each other. He said he still loved me. He told me he had been doing a lot of drugs latley. Like, three times a day. He told me he didn't want to tell me becuase he thought I would be mad. It didn't make me mad it made me feel sorry for him. Then he came online about a week ago, and he told me that his stepfather died just last night. He never knew his real dad so his stepdad WAS his "dad". Nathan and I talked about it together. Then, I found out from Kurt that he has a girlfriend. Its hard to love two people at a time, isn't it Nate?

2. Morgan-
Today Morgan asked if I could come over. So I asked my mom and she said no. Typical. He KNOWS what my parents are like, but he STILL made a huge deal out of it. And ended up with him insulting me majourly. He made his name "Why? It was only a movie". Well you know what Morgan? Why do I care? You're only a boy.

3.Josh Bridge-
Josh INSISTS on talking EXCESSIVLY about Nickie to me. He KNOWS I hate her. And he knows that I'm deathly jealous of her but still has to go on about how he and her are "soulmates". He made a quiz and one of the questions was, "who do I hope never to loose?" a)Nickie b) YOU! c) my mom d) my cellphone. And I put Nickie becuase that, of course, was the answer. I told him that I said, "what was with the question about Nickie? A week ago, you were begging me to say I slept with you so she would dump you" and he said, "well I love her" and I said, "yeah...I know. Answer B was completley wrong wasn't it?" and he said, "no. Its right. I'm sorry. It must have killed you to say that I didn't love you." I said, "yeah, but I knew it already so not really." Then he said, "Jen, I do love you. I love you more than Nickie. Definately. You know more about me then she does." Now what I'm wondering is if I like him, and he likes me, Why aren't we together?

4.Josh White-
Josh opened up to me. He told me his life story. I'm not going to go into detail but I'm glad he did. I used to think he was such a jerk. But he's not. He's not at all.

All for now.

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 21:15:45 GMT

josh is the biggest liar i have ever met. first, he expects me to tell nickie a complete LIE so HE can "get out" of dating her. THEN damien tells me that he was told by josh that josh doesn't like me anymore, [completely fine, if josh had told me the same thing...which he didn't] and that he's back with nickie *eye roll*, THEN when i confront josh about it, he says, "damien just told you that because we're not friends anymore and he likes nickie and wants to get back at me. i still kina love you" [still kina? wtf?] THEN when i ask damien about it, he tells me the exact opposite and tells me that hes the first to hear about them being friends. damien tells me that josh told him that we DID have sex [hahahahahahahaa] at b's [hahahahaha] and steph "walked in on us" [hahahahaha] and sent nickie [hahahahahahaha] an email telling her so [*palm slap*], so i'm yelling at josh here, saying, "i'm sick of you lying all the time, and DRAGGING me into things like this" and he goes all "i'm not in the mood" then i kept yelling at him and he blocked me becuase hes a stupid immature boy. GAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!

relativly good day today... took morgan's hat =)

but paige punched me in the face *ow* and got mad at me for getting mad at her so i had to walk home [completley FINE if i hadn't told melissa i was GETTING a ride and she got mad at me becuase she had to wait outside in the COLD]

but chase walked home with me [and went out of his way so i wouldn't be alone =) awwwwwwww]

pip pip

i never expected you to considering you never did

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 18:56:06 GMT

brandon--> i hope you're reading this:

you never liked me
you made me feel like dirt
and not that "fancy" dirt you buy in stores either
stop trying to get me to tell you
even if i DO tell you
it won't be what you want to hear
i love morgan
not you
deal with it mofo

The Union

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 18:52:24 GMT

I wait around for this still small center
From saint to sinner
Well which one is it?
Just who do you think you are?
(Who do you think you are?)

Well who did you come to
Well is it who I think it is I swear to god
Well is it who I think it is?

You always knew it was on purpose
Yeah what's the point if it don't serve it's purpose
Splits up to focus your eyes couldn't swell
You're built from distractions so brilliantly dull
Well I had a better friend in my worst ..
That I'd rather have then either one of you

Well I never made a scene
(Well they came to me)
I never made a scene
Well they came to me
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene

I always know to avoid the issue
Got me alone so I couldn't address you
Home is where you make it, Love,
Don't get yourself confused
Besides what's it to you?
Well I'm training in my conscience for your
For your confidence
Attacked my lungs with lies still past the time
..

I didn't have to I didn't have to
I never made a scene
I didn't have I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene

I never made a scene
Well they came to me
I never made a scene
Well they came to me

I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene
I didn't have to I didn't have to
Well I never made a scene

ms. brightside

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 13:30:25 GMT

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 08:32:58 GMT

at paige's...very very tired!!! morgan, jarhead/elpalso, kevin, kayla, lauren and chase came...SO fun! GOD i love morgan!

squee#2

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 22:28:20 GMT

morgan and i are going out again =)

*SQUEE*

it was only a kiss...it was only a kiss...

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 21:21:54 GMT

last night on the phone, me and morgan had one of our "serious" conversations and then i was VERY tired, so i decided to go sleepies =) so i told him that, and we said our goodbyes and i said, [without thinking,] "i love you". then, realizing what i just said, i said, "oh shit." and hung up. this morning, in english, morgan said, "why'd you hang up? i was gonna say it back..."

today, we were talking a lot and hanging out a lot, and hugging and holding hands and such...its so strange...i love morgan AND i love josh!!! AHHH

me and morgan kissed today while we were talking...=S *akward* but...*squee* =)

ahhh what am i supposed to do????? respond if you have any idea!!!

i want to know what it was that made me move in across the way from me

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 21:37:24 GMT

somethings wrong with morgan...and he's not teling me what. chase knows and he wants to tell me but he's not spilling becuase he knows morgan wouldn't want me to know. it's really strange not knowing whats wrong...because he's ALWAYS told me.

and nickie's gonna come after me with a pitchfork...

this akward silence makes me crazy....

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 21:30:48 GMT

me and morgan broke up today...but we're both okay...which is a plus. I think he's still a bit, "I'm acting different around you for some reason and I really don't know what to say" around me though...but at least he's talking to me. Ish. Well I sent Josh an email...and I hope he responds soon

*mini spaz in chair*

squee

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 16:07:08 GMT

i love kayla and katie and paige =) i so glad they my friends *squee*

"saints and sailors"

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 15:56:11 GMT

This is where I say I've had enough
and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
and I don't believe that I'm getting any better, any better.

[Chorus]
Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
and I'm thinking awful things
and I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment
is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence.

Wandering this house
like I've never wanted out
and this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
'cause they would never do,
I would never do, never.

[Chorus]

So don't be a liar,
don't say that "everything's working"
when everything's broken.
And you smile like a saint
but you curse like a sailor
and your eyes say the joke's on me.

But I'm not laughing and you're not leaving
and who do I think I am kidding
When I'm the only one locked in this cell?

[Chorus]

So don't be a liar,
don't say that "everything's working"
when everything's broken.
And you smile like a saint
but you curse like a sailor
and your eyes say the joke's on me.